I realized these days how powerful the medicines I take really are.
I stopped taking them for like 6 days and the world started to fall apart on me. I wouldn’t want to leave my bed all day long. I almost decided to buy a plane ticket to italy because I didn’t know what I wanted!
Fortunately, today it came to my mind that I wasn’t taking my pills since too long, and I took them…I don’t know wether this is placebo effect or not, but I feel so much better…I went for a walk and a beer with my sister and my roomie and enjoyed every single minute of it…then we shoot photos in my room, I didn’t use my camera properly since ages…now I’m looking forward to the new day, and I feel like drawing and creating and doing things in general.
I’ve never been a fan of the fact that chemicals keep me living, but I’m so thankful they do. I’m so thankful I don’t have to fight against depression since it’s the last thing I need right now.